Saturday, December 10, 2011

Being 24...


Being a 24 something guy…A rueful phase it is…
For all my life I wished if I could stay a kid or a boy at least but god never answered my prayers, but today I wish I could take a leap into the future, being a man is all I want, this transition is killing me…I wish I could be 27 or 28…
Yesterday I had no questions, tomorrow I might have few answers but today my life is no more than a questionnaire…
Few one liners few yes or no, few one mark questions few major blows…
To start with it, the first question I have is “will I be able to achieve what I wish from life or a bit of it at least?
I have no answer to this question but to deepen the crisis within me I have yet another question from my parents “do you even know what you want from your life?”
Yes, till yesterday I did!!!
They tell me you have been living for yourself all this time, now be responsible and give us some time…
“Was I living for myself?”
I am sorry I just realized!!!
Everyone tells me you are getting matured, “don’t you sense the change?”
Of course I do, I am losing my hair and sense of self, got some flab and disrespect, “is it so normal coz I am getting matured?”
My ex are getting married and my present wants to, she has had her independent and adventurous life and being stable is what she plan, yes she wants to get stable with me when stability and  I are already a zillion light years apart, but again a question is all I get, “am I ready for marriage or am I ready for THE marriage?”
Whatever I do!!!
Every uncle I meet asks “what are your future plans?” while every aunt would ask “planning to get married any soon?”
Yes, your daughter, along with your wealth, but “Umm!!! I am not sure…” is all I could say…
Congratulations, I have a new job which I already hate, but “I do earn now am I independent?”, and than my dad said ‘you don’t earn enough, not even to pay for you food’
Free lunches are not so free…!!!
Life is so dead with relations no more then a mocking drill, I feel so passive even to think…
With all my friends stuck in the same riddle, no hope to help not even share…


People please don’t relate this to anyone, I am not me I am not you, I am just a 24 year old who doesn’t know what to do…
                                                                                   
Courtesy:  http://somethingtheycalllife.blogspot.com/


4 comments:

  1. Aww..that's a terrible phase well I can't understand it..m not a guy :D

    On another note..relax and don't overthink..things will fall into place when they are meant too :)

    Take Care

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  2. @Fatima: hell yeah terrible it is... but I am sure even gals have this rueful phase, everyone does...
    n yeah I am just waiting for things to fall in the place and hope they do before I fall... :-|

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